Monday, September 15, 2014

My Own Personal Fight Club

It is 9:15 PM local time.  It is 2:15 PM back home.  My body has no idea what time it is or where it is; it just knows it wants to sleep.

I’m sure there are correct answers to this time/space conundrum.  The space answer is easy: I am at Addis Ababa International Airport, located in the capital of Ethiopia.  The time answer is disconcertingly relative.  Does local time even matter?  How often do I change my watch settings?  Should I put it at my destination’s time, as so many others have recommended?

I prefer to think pragmatically.  The time is 24 hours into my journey to Karatu, Tanzania.  24 hours ago I left my house with two bags weighing 50 lbs each.  Mercifully, those have (hopefully) made the journey independent of my efforts.  I have landed in Frankfurt, Germany; Jeddah, Saudi Arabia; and now Addis Ababa, Ethiopia.  I have watched a half dozen movies and taken probably a baker’s dozen naps, none more than 20 minutes.  I have seen the Arabian desert for the first time, even if only through a window of a plane.  I am typing through the last remaining charges on my electronic devices as I hunker down for quite probably the most painful travel hardship I have undertaken: a 14 hour layover in a very foreign land.

The airport is closing down for the evening.  Duty-free shops, tacky souvenir shops, and international cafés are shuttering their doors.  There are prayer rooms, separate for males and females, directly adjacent the smoking lounge.  There are a total of 8 gates at this central hub for much of East Africa, and probably an equal number of toilets.  (Side note: If I catch Ebola, it will be here.  The toilets are barely maintained, and no one was screened for Ebola upon entering.  I was forced out necessity to brush my teeth there, so if you see me in the news for having Ebola, please alert the CDC it was from Ethiopia)

Despite the late hour, the airport is alive.  Hundreds of people stream past, speaking dozens of languages, although English clearly predominates.  A group of men directly next to me are speaking in a language riddled with clicks and foreign consonant sounds.  There is a line of lounge chairs that people have staked out and are planning on sleeping on for the evening.  Clearly, I am not going to be alone in spending the night here.  I hope I find comfort and safety enough to catch another half dozen naps.

Reflecting on this moment, I am reminded of the movie Fight Club.  The movie, based on an existentialist, antiestablishment novel by Chuck Palahniuk, espouses self-destruction through violence as a means to break through the materialistic, manufactured life experience of millenials.  One of the many quotes that have stuck with me is, “It’s only after you’ve lost everything that you’re free to do anything.”  At this moment, I have no idea if my luggage will make it with me.  I have minimal access to food and water, and the overwhelming number of people around me threatens my innate sense of safety.
Yet despite these obstacles, the experience is liberating.  The lack of Internet means I have no idea what’s going on in the rest of the world, and quite frankly I don’t care.  The worry about publishing the paper I’m writing?  Gone.  The concern about figuring out what I’m going to do with the next 5 years of my life?  The new electronic toy I want to buy?  Even my ongoing struggle between atheism, agnosticism, and spirituality?  Well, it’s kinda hard to care about such things when life gives you more immediate concerns.  Traveling is my Fight Club.

I make it sound as though I feel threatened or in any sense of a panic.  It’s actually quite the opposite.  This is not an adrenaline rush type of satisfaction; rather an acknowledgement that I can no longer take the simple things for granted.  The experience is quite disarming.  There are dozens of travelers asleep nearby, with their possessions laying at their feet.  Others will leave their luggage behind to lay claim to their lounge chair as they go stretch their legs.  In other words, their possessions lay unprotected on lounge chairs in a busy airport with hundreds of people streaming by.  There is an unspoken amount of trust between these people, people who are very unlikely to speak the same language as the others here.  In America, inability to speak English is a tremendous barrier to trust.  Here, it is a fact of everyday life.

A lounge chair has opened.  It has been over an hour before I could find an opportunity like this, and one does not pass on an opportunity for comfortable sleep.  My flight departs in just over 12 hours.  2 hours after that, I will be in Tanzania.  Assuming no issues with a customs intake process where I’ll be bringing 50 lbs of medical supplies into the country, I will (hopefully) have a driver waiting for me.  He will take me on a 3.5 hour car ride into the desert, where I hope I will find the Internet to post this.


It’s only after you’ve lost everything that you’re free to do anything.

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